A New Year, A New Life

 I guess it's time to announce that I have a new life growing inside!

I'm having a hard time deciding to post anything on social media. I mean I already told anyone who probably cares anyway, but also for those still trying to have a baby (8 people that I even know of) I know exactly what it's like to see 17 pregnancy announcements in your feed within 4 months. It's not that I was ever any less excited for those friends, but it still made me ask myself the same questions about if I just wasn't as good of a mom or something. Which is stupid because I know that's not true. I know that every setback we think we are facing is preparing us for God's greatest miracles.

Or maybe it's still not quite real to me yet after last time, I don't know. Pretty much I'm just overthinking everything. But I am so grateful that it is my turn again and for families and God's perfect plan of happiness for each one of us.

 Anyways, we went to our first doctors appointment on Friday and there's a heartbeat this time. We'll be 10 weeks on Wednesday. And there's no surprise that the size of our baby is already measuring 6 days ahead. Here we go with big baby #3, but so excited for our tie breaker to be here around August 12th!

4 days after EmmaLee's due date!

 The funny thing is that ever since summer Kasen has been asking for a little brother named rainbow. I don't know where the rainbow thing came from except that he asks me to sing the rainbow song every night before bed. Weekly Kasen would ask if there is a baby in my tummy yet.

It wasn't until a couple months after our miscarriage that I found out what a rainbow baby even is.

So Kasen really is getting his rainbow baby.

 When Kasen and Tai saw the ultra sound he told us that he wants to see the baby, but it's "pitch black."

Whenever I tell Tai not to climb on top of me she says, "Momma, I won't hurt the baby, I promise!"

And Kasen is all about tickling my tummy and telling me that the baby is laughing while it's sleeping. 

After the doctors office we went out for an ice cream cone!

Because we have lots to celebrate this week! 

1. A heartbeat

2. We finished listening to the Book of Mormon together for the 2nd time (and after talking to Kasen about how we can pray to ask Heavenly Father if the book is true he said, "but I already know it is true!")

and 3. No cavities at the dentist!

I was so impressed with my kids this time because usually we have to put them on our laps and hold them down for the dentist to look in their mouths. This time they each ran right back, hopped up in their chairs and after Kasen's request for them to be gentle, they both got their teeth cleaned all by themselves!

Tai is going to Primary now too! It wouldn't be as weird if she hadn't still been 2 years old at the beginning of last month! She's the very youngest, but is going straight in to her class and loving it. So much better than Kasen did transitioning into primary.

Kasen is awesome though cause he wanted to bear his testimony in sacrament again and marched right up there, asked me to hold his hand, and said, "I love Jesus and he loves everyone else. Sometimes my mom reads her scriptures and I love my family." Haha I guess there are worse things he could have said from the pulpit!

I just love how much they teach me. Having kids really is the best way to learn about life :)