Mother's Day

 

It's been an orange Mother's Day!

Tai planted the sweetest little orange flower for me at preschool, Kyle got me a few new pairs of TOMS shoes, including an orange pair AND I bought myself a bike trailer that also happened to be orange! So Friday afternoon we rode bikes and Kohen did not want to get out of the bike trailer when I unbuckled him. I'm so proud of Tai's determination to ride her bike! For over an hour she kept trying so hard, but I think her bike is just too small for her now. Kasen would totally be able to ride his new bike he got for his birthday last year, but he tried twice and gave up. I was all excited to get a bike and a bike trailer to go on bike rides with the kids and my kids can't even ride their bikes. Lol 

This morning Kyle made me a yummy French Toast breakfast and the kids sang in sacrament meeting. They both keep telling me Happy Mother's Day and it's the sweetest.

This Mother's Day I am feeling like the worst Mom.

On Friday we leave for our 10 year anniversary Alaskan cruise. This was when it was the cheapest so when I saw on Tai's registration that both her dance class and Preschool class were supposed to end on the 27th I thought how perfect it would be to be home in time for all the last week of school things.

Well, that's not the case and I am completely crushed. Preschool and dance are ending the week before the 27th. I sat in the car during her soccer practice and cried for the first time this year. I am missing her last soccer game, I am missing her first and only dance recital, I am missing her preschool graduation in her cute purple cap and gown, I am missing her dress rehearsal and pictures and I am missing her preschool performance. So EVERYTHING! All of it. I don't get to support her, cheer her on, take pictures or have the proud mom moment watching all the hard work pay off; the being brave, the smiling and the doing it even though she's going to be so nervous. I cannot believe I am missing every single thing.

Maybe she won't remember it. But I will. They are my memories I am missing. And I get that I shouldn't be complaining about getting to go on an epic vacation, but man is it going to be hard to leave.

We're not missing Kasen's last soccer game or his dance festival though so when Tai is a teenager and thinks we don't love her or that Kasen is our favorite, it's going to stem from this very trip, when we made it to all of Kasen's things and NONE of hers.

Worst mom.

But man I am so grateful for my mom coming to spend a whole week at my house to take care of my kids and take them to all of the things that I am missing. She's taking time off work, bringing her puppies and from the beginning has said, "just let me know what days you need me and I'll be there." She has made it so easy and is just the best. I love you Mom!

Emma and I took my mom out for ice cream and to get pedicures again for the 5th Mother's Day at Allure Nails! And Stephanie and I are going with Mom Annette to Time Out for Women in September for her Mother's Day gift.

Thursday night Stephanie received her endowment at the Timpanogos Temple and Kyle and I got to go with her! In my orange dress. So it's been a wonderful week.

Sure love these kids!

And my Moms